u know also what… i literally never felt like i deserved the foreplay i need for my pussy to be ready to fuck bc idk i feel like people will get bored and there’s also the fact that no one but me can really touch my clit bc it’s too sensitive so in order for people to stop touching it without having to tell them to stop (bc i don’t wanna make them feel bad..) i’ll go straight to penetration and that’s another reason why sex hurts all the time